Waiting

I am holding it all inside of me,
So much has happened in this short time.
Try to keep my grip so it won't break free,
Pretending that everything is just fine.

I am used to knowing I'm the good one,
That I am the one who helps them grow.
Not this time though, I have been outdone,
And there is no going back now that I know.

I don't want to admit it all,
But the feelings, the words, are welling up.
For every single part of you, I started to fall.
I started to fall and it wont let up.

Every side of you is special, unique,
You are not like others in the best ways.
So many things I wish I could speak,
Thoughts I wish I could raise.

I won't rush you into being ready,
I care too much to do that to you.
You might know my answer already;
Waiting is okay for now, waiting for you.